The Holiday Season is here!! Thanksgiving kicked off a month filled with friends, celebrating and travel. How was your Turkey Day? Mine was quiet and I loved it! Thursday I set out to run maybe 4-5 miles, but ended up with 8.25 slow miles. They felt good and relaxed, I was cruising! That was followed up with an hour and a half of yoga, packing for my weekend away and just doing whatever made me happy. It was a perfect day, in so many ways, even without turkey and all the trimmings.
Friday, I was up early to catch a flight to Southern California. My amazing friend Mabel married her love this weekend and I had some fitness classes to check out! When I got in on Friday, I headed over to Pedal Spin Studio for their free circuit and spin classes that were being offered. The circuit class went by so fast and was challenging, yet fun. It was a great way to shake up my usual routine. I followed that up with spin and then headed out to find the Whole Foods Market I had googled. This was a two story gold mind! I had packed my food scale, did you see that on Instagram? I really wanted to stay on track this past weekend, knowing that I could splurge a little at the wedding reception if I wanted to. I picked up portebello mushrooms, grilled chicken and baby potatoes from the salad/hot bar. It was perfect!
Saturday, I was up early (duh…of course I was!) to go to SoulCycle and then Bar Method before getting ready for the wedding. If you haven’t been to a SoulCycle class before, and like spin, GO! It’s a little pricey, I won’t lie, at $30 for a drop in class, but so worth it. The teacher, Tiffany, led the small group through 45 minutes of heart pounding spin, incorporating upper body and some core work, too. It was just what I needed to set the tone for the day! In between classes, I found the cutest French bakery and had an almond milk latte.
Bar Method was up next and I shook the last of my 4 scheduled workouts for my weekend away. The class was full and the teacher corrected, encouraged and kept us on point the entire time!
I was so excited to get ready for the wedding, I love a chance to get dressed up and be girly! Don’t get me wrong, I love me some tech and spandex, with a pony tail and my pink hat. But…being able to slip on a dress, heels and make up is such a nice change!
My friend Mabel married her forever love and the ceremony was gorgeous! We have been friends for 10 years and she is the definition of friendship, through and through. Always willing to lend an ear, laugh with you, open her home to you and has the biggest heart! She served our country in the U.S. Navy and has gone on to make the most incredible life for herself. Her husband, Alex, is one lucky guy! You could see the love between them the entire night, it was so inspiring. Not many people find this in their life time and I am so happy that they did! Congratulations Mabel and Alex!
How was your holiday weekend? What are you plans between now and New Year’s? Do you plan meals ahead when you travel?
Happy Thanksgiving!! Today is a day to celebrate, give back and give thanks for all that we have.
I was up and out of the house before the turkeys were awake, for 8.25 slow miles. It felt good to be on the road and I really just wanted to see the sunrise and get some miles in!
Are you attending a turkey trot? Maybe volunteering in some way or relaxing with family? I am planning to attend a benefit for the local food bank at Om Oassis, spend time with friends and relax. It sounded like the perfect way to spend the day!
As many of you have read, this year has been full of ups and downs for my pink hat, but at the end of the day, I have so much. My family, friends and health are strong! My network of awesome people is growing, friendships are blooming and I am in such a great place. I can’t wait to see what the new year has in store for me. This year has zoomed by and I can’t believe in another month and a few days, it will be 2017!
What is on your Thanksgiving table this year? Are you splurging on one special dish in particular? Our Paleo Life has a great Thanksgiving Round Up that includes this No Bake Pumpkin Pie that looks amazing!
I hope everyone has a great day, stays safe and enjoys family and friends.
If you’ve been following me on Instagram or Facebook you know I’ve been gearing up to help pace the 3:00 group for the Big Sur Half Marathon that took place yesterday. It. Was. AMAZING!!!
Molly and I were ready to go, fueled with a healthy mix of energy, motivation and excitement. Molly paced this group last year and couldn’t stop saying the best things about it. With her endorsement, I couldn’t wait to line up at the starting line! You all know that I love to volunteer, give back and act crazy motivate anyone and everyone to do their best. I wanted to help pace this group for all of those reasons and more.
We had a few folks join us and we took off like the moving party we were. The athletes either sped up, YESSSS! or decided to take their time and enjoy the scenery as we forged ahead. The 3:00 pacers became a mobile motivational cheering station. If you saw us or let’s be honest heard us on the course, wouldn’t you agree?! This being the local event, in the 8,000 runners, I knew a lot of them! It was high fives galore! We loved every second of it.
We made sure to keep an eye on the runners around us and check in with folks that didn’t look like they were having as much fun as we were. I gave away the sweaty Gu Blocks I was carrying, chatted with those around us to find out what brought them to 13.1 miles on a gorgeous Sunday, we found a medic for one lady who had an unhappy tummy and cheered everyone on. This morning, I had a direct message on Instagram from Amy, she said she found us at mile 10 and we were what she needed finish strong. That’s what I’m talking about!!! We had the “dynamic duo” ahead of us, unknowingly we helped one of them get a PR. She told us at the recovery tent sponsored by The Treadmill. So much love in 3:00, I can’t wait to go back next year!
A special thanks to the Cleary’s, Chris and Janice. They are the owners of The Treadmill, the locally owned and operated running store, that put together the pacing team for the event. They infuse passion, commitment and giving back to the community through everything they do. They give of themselves, their family and foster relationships with all athletes that will last a lifetime. If it weren’t for them and their love for getting outside, we wouldn’t be half the community we are. You make us better athletes, friends and neighbors, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!
Have you volunteered or paced at a race?
How was your weekend, tell me what you were up to!
Yesterday, a photo popped up on Facebook, as a memory from a year ago. Looking at the photo, I realized just how much of a change I’ve made since November, 2015. Working on myself has been a continual process for years. I’ve had my ups and downs, but to see where I was a year ago compared to where I am now was surprising. It’s not just the outside that’s changed but the inside as well. My wants, needs, and method of reaching personal goals has evolved. It’s been a good reminder that who I was, am and will be are all different people, within the same body.
At first, I wasn’t going to use the photo from last year and the one that I took on Sunday during my run as a Transformation Tuesday example. This was originally meant to be a post about my battle with Bulimia and how I’ve adopted a Flexible Dieting lifestyle, aka, IIFYM. I’ll get to those topics in a second. Looking at the photos side by side, they really speak volumes. They show that small changes over time, add up. They represent that the more I accepted myself and loved myself for flaws and strengths, I gained so much more. Not just tighter muscles, smaller clothes, but an appreciation of me.
A few weeks ago, I was going through my closet and tried on a sequined dress that I hadn’t been able to wear. It had been hanging in the back, with a neon sign above it that reminded me it hadn’t fit in a long time. I wore it once, it was a clearance find almost 4 years ago and that was the end of the dress. Every once in a while I would try it on, it wouldn’t fit and it would return home. I wanted to give it a try again, and lo and behold, the dress fit!
When I posted the photo as my Transformation Tuesday, I mentioned that I have a history with bulimia and how I’ve begun a flexible dieting approach. In the past I’ve used Weight Watchers to shed unwanted pounds. It was a great tool after my divorce and really got me on a good track. But having a history of bulimia and knowing my triggers, food has a delicate relationship with my mind. A few people mentioned that they would like to hear more about that journey and I’ve been meaning to discuss it.
Let me say this, before I go any further. If you knew my family, my mother or the situation that I grew up in, please do not pass judgement. Each family goes through life, the way they know how. Was my childhood an easy one? No. If you continue reading and think that you had no idea that life was rough, I was treated a certain way, etc. or that it changes how you perceived my mother, it happened and I’ve dealt with it.
Bulimia started when I was around 14, it was the reaction to family issues that had come to a whole new low and I didn’t know how to cope. From the time I was born to when I left home, life was a roller coaster. It was never easy and I suffered emotional, psychological and physical abuse. We were very much a solid picture of happiness on the outside and when we closed the doors at night, it was a different story.
When my experience with Bulimia first started, I thought it was a tool to lose weight, I was mistaken. I remember at one point, when I broke down and told my ex husband about it, I described it as, “Being able to control what goes in and out of my body, because I wasn’t able to control anything else in my life”. By that point, I was 19 years old and not as active with the disease as I had been. My yo yo dieting was taught to me by my mother, she was a professional at it. This was passed down to me, along with body shaming and low self esteem from an extremely early age – in kindergarten, I was promised a certain bathing suit, IF I could lose weight to fit in it. When she found out what I was doing and confronted me, her response was that I was doing it wrong. You don’t eat and purge, you purge and starve yourself. So that solidified the fact that what should have been a loving support system was non existent. Something I knew, but a cry for help like this was answered with more shame and degradation. Looking back, I am fully aware that I was given inadequate tools for coping, I had to learn to heal myself. My parents were not capable of nurturing me emotionally, providing unconditional love and in many ways parenting. Being parents to your parents is not something a child should have to take on, but that is a post for another day. Using bulimia to handle what life and my family threw at me, while being a depressed child wore me down. I took boxes of laxatives a week, to the point my body almost could sense the reaction when I popped the blister seal on Correctol. Constant cramping, running to the bathroom with diarrhea, being afraid to eat because of how it will react, never do I wish that on anyone.
It is a long road and in all honesty, there are times when emotionally I’m a train wreck and my mind wanders to those old habits, purging had been both mental and physical for me. Do I take a box of laxatives, now? No. I find another way to get through it. I am certain that my digestive issues are partly due to genetics and to the damage I caused myself.
Learning how to appreciate food, as fuel for exercise and also enjoy it, has been marathon and not a sprint. There are times that I can go with the flow and others, that doesn’t happen. When big life changes happen or things are difficult for me, I look to exercise to work out the inner dialogue and process what’s going on. Many tears have been shed on a run, an extra rep or higher weight has been achieved in the weight room. At the same time, I need to be very careful of how much I’m doing and watch my internal dialogue very closely. It becomes a slippery slope of anxiety, depression and feelings of not being good enough.
The end of August rolled around and I found myself either eating not enough or a bit too large of a portion. These weren’t entirely unhealthy choices, but I knew I needed to get myself back on track or else the wheels were going to fall off the bus and quickly. This is when I started to look at Flexible Dieting for how it could benefit me and lose a couple of unwanted pounds. It wasn’t restricting, it provided a target for macros – protein, carbohydrates and fat. Each one of these macro nutrients plays a key role in nutrition. For more information on how macros stack up, check this out. On IIFYM they have several calculators to use, depending on what information you need to know. When I initially calculated my macro needs, I didn’t weigh myself. Odd I know. First of all, I didn’t own a scale, or the enemy as I used to refer to it as. I ball parked what my weight was, in order to get started. Really? I was afraid of getting on the scale after being anti scale for so long, relying on how my clothes fit and how I felt. This was a better gauge for me, less pressure than a number, however, for this, I needed to know. The concept sounded doable and in a way gave me something to work on, in a healthy way without focusing so much on it. The calculator that I used, put together my weight, with my goal and my exercise level to determine the numbers. It gives you your macro break down by gram as well as the overall calorie target. The objective is to eat a well balanced diet through the day and stay in an all over calorie deficit if the goal is to lose weight. I downloaded My Macros+ , ordered a food scale from Amazon and got down to business. So far, I haven’t hit all the numbers spot on in a day, which is ok. I’ve been under carbs, over protein, have eaten all of my fat or not. It’s a balance and good learning lesson for me. I can work in my Chia Flax Peanut Butter from Trader Joe’s and still be on track, just not eating more than needed. Also, being a creature of habit when I food prep for the week each Sunday, I find myself eating pretty much the same thing. I’ve become a bit more creative – tuna with mustard and cauliflower rice is a good afternoon snack with a bang for my macro buck.
IIFYM keeps me accountable to myself for myself. It’s learning and listening to my body, not beating it up for something it has had no control over. And yes, I’ve measured out that peanut butter and eaten one tablespoon at the end of the day, savoring every last morsel!
The program also helps me shift the idea of replacing the calories I’ve burned. This has been a huge benefit, as it helps keep me from punishing myself for eating something or feeling as if I have to burn off a particular meal/food. Food shouldn’t be a reward or a punishment in any form, that’s my two cents.
I’ve tracked for 63 days, feel stronger than ever and am at my lowest weight, while achieving it in the healthiest way. My new problem, if it’s a problem, is that everything in my closet either fits or is too big. Gone are the days of dreading what to wear because nothing fit, in a not so good way.
If you’re a IIFYM person, give me your tips and tricks! What do you love? What satisfies your protein intake? How do you manage splurges?
It’s drizzly and chilly here and it’s November!! That’s another month closer to the end of the year and boy am I ready for 2017 to get here. Is it me or has 2016 just been a kick in the butt?
“Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new beginning.” ~ Carl Bard
November also begins the holiday season, travel plans, and the Big Sur 1/2 Marathon on the 13th. I’m super excited to help pace the 3:00 group, I know I’ve mentioned it a few times and it’s going to be so much fun. I can’t wait to see and help runners crush goals and cross the finish line happy.
Last week, I had an amazing run on Tuesday morning. It was super early and I felt great. Really, it was one of those runs we all live for. Good pace, strong mind set and overall I felt like a Kenyan in a pink hat. Who wouldn’t love that? Then Wednesday, I laced up my Mizuno Paradox for the weekly run with #lesquad. As Kelli and I got to mile two, my right glute started to tighten and it was not a pretty site. Friday, I headed in to see Dr. Barkalow and come to find out, my obturator muscle was in a fuss. This is pretty much how it responded to me during the run.
In case you don’t know what it is, it’s a little muscle that packs a punch toward the bottom of your gluteal area, X marks the spot! I can do anything that doesn’t cause pain, discomfort is one thing, but pain another. Pool, kettle bell, barre and spin are on tap for a few more days.
So as you can see, I’m ready for a new month and new possibilities. This morning I made a cup of Ginger Turmeric Tea, tossed a curl in my hair and was ready to take on the day!
What are your plans for the holidays? Anything special coming up we should know about to cheer you on for?
Happy Tuesday! How was everyone’s weekend? Mine went by far too fast and I’m ready for the next one. I’m sure I’m not alone in that!
Sunday, I was supposed to be lining up to run a marathon. Instead, I slept in till 7:30, made an egg white omelette, went to the gym, shopped and had lunch with a friend. I knew that my training had me physically ready, but emotionally I wasn’t. Visions of melting down while hitting the wall around mile 18-20 did not sound like a good time. Not a party I wanted to partake in. It’s happened before and to be quite honest, I know my limitations. This past year has been a dousy, far too many ups and downs to count and in my heart, I knew if I wasn’t going to run and feel good about it, than it wasn’t worth it. I had someone online ask me how I felt about quitting the race? Excuse me? Quitting? I didn’t quit, no ma’am, I made the best choice for me. That’s the only explanation I provided, because it was the only one. There are many other races to be run and I will run 26.2 again. It’s not going anywhere and neither am I.
This morning, I was up and out of the house at 4 am for my run. On Tuesdays, I try and head into the office early, to leave early. There is a kettle bell class before spin that I love and I try to go to as much as possible. My boss is awesome and we made a deal that if I make up the time, I can head out a little earlier than usual. Same deal on Thursdays, so I can go to barre. Isn’t he the best?! With my run scheduled, I knew I wanted to be on the road by a certain time, which I was 20 minutes ahead. That’s winning! It felt good to get the miles done and it was a little longer because as we all know, my internal GPS is always off. That gave me 5.77 miles at a 10:02 pace, not too shabby!
Almost every successful person starts with two beliefs: the future can be better than the present and 2. I have power to make it so.
How do you define success for yourself? Is it setting, reaching and achieving a goal? Is it the small steps on the way to something bigger? More often than not, I look at the pieces that helped me reach my goal. The small details, the overlooked achievement, finding good in something that wasn’t entirely so.
In the past, if you asked me about success, as it applies to running, I would have said it would have been defined by pace and finish times. That’s not the case any more. Over the years, my focus has shifted from time specific, to over all experience and how I felt in the process. Was I mentally strong? Was I able to help someone in some way? How did my body feel? Don’t get me wrong, I would love to see a sub 2:00 half or a speedy 10K in my future, but it’s all about how I get there.
This last week has been filled with so much! I was accepting to Oiselle’s Team Volee and as an Ambassador for Dixie Devil Sport. Dixie Devil is a new and fresh company for women, that participate in multi sports, gear for chic chicks! I love that line on their website, how cute is that? Chic Chicks!
I’ve also had some good training runs and on Saturday, ran with Molly. It turned out to be her birthday and what better way to start the day, but a 10 mile o’dark30 run! We started at 5:30 am and finished with coffee and chat, before she headed out for her day of fun.
I wanted to start early, so I could get to a 10 am barre class at the gym, because I was off to a wedding in the afternoon. Dr. B, you all should remember him, he’s the one that helps keep me upright and fixes my numerous injuries. His oldest son was married to an incredible young lady, this weekend. I was excited to hear about the engagement and so honored that they thought to have me there. Having worked for the office, I’ve known them since the boys were little and it was such a wonderful day. Despite the rain, we spent the evening under a twinkle lit tent, enjoying friends and of course toasting to the happy couple. After the ceremony and cocktail hour, dinner was served and it was freshly made to order tacos. Both fun and yummy!
What do you categorize a success?
How was your weekend?
Thanksgiving is around the corner, are you going to register for a turkey trot?
It’s October, which means the weather is cooling down, there is a crispness in the air and SAD ramps up a bit for me. Every Fall, armed with a latte, I prepare myself for the couple of months ahead. Do you know what SAD is?
Pshycom.net tells us: “Seasonal affective disorder (SAD) is a category of depression that emerges in particular seasons of the year. Most people notice SAD symptoms starting in the fall and increasing during the winter months, but a few people experience a spring/summer version.”
There are a few causes for this, reduced sunlight being a major one. It can throw our internal clocks off, resulting in a reduction of serotonin and melatonin.
I can tell that it’s coming, like clock work every year. My attitude shifts, my Vitamin D consumption goes up and I tend to challenge my therapist a bit more on tough topics. We’ve been working together for a few years and I think maybe two Fall’s ago, it was really bad. We butted heads on everything possible. I pretty much couldn’t be around myself. But then, Spring comes on the horizon and things perk up again.
A couple of weeks ago, I was chatting with my coach about what’s been going on with each of us and I mentioned, “I’ve lost my mojo for running” Not that I haven’t been running, I have and my training has been going well, I just haven’t looked at it the same. Michelle told me to be easy on myself, if a run didn’t feel right and was on the calendar, I could replace it with cross training or a rest day. I found I was getting all of my workouts in, but sometimes I juggled them around to when I knew it would be better timing. This was inline with my promise to myself that during the time of transition, if I didn’t work out, eat exactly how I should, I wouldn’t beat myself up. I had enough on my plate to know where my limits were both emotionally and psychologically. Adding stress due to food or exercise was not a plan for success. I pretty much gave myself a pass to be nice to myself.
The universe had me hip deep in muck this summer and I put in the work and effort to dig through it rather than pushing aside and pretend that life is going on its merry way. I needed to chew on it and leave it under my Mizunos.
Even though my Instagram has still be strong, I haven’t felt much like blogging. I didn’t realize that it’s been since JUNE that I’ve blogged? How did that happen? Oh right, I had my waders on trying to demuck my life. I promise I’ll get better and back on schedule with blog posts, I know how much you all enjoy reading what’s going on in my pink hat world.
For now, I’m focusing on a few things to get me back on track.
Be more social and not quite such a hermit. When life gets tough, I stay to myself more.
Continue to nurture the meaningful relationships in my life.
Take care of myself inside and out. Recently, I started using Macros+ to help keep me accountable. The results have been outstanding! During stressful times I either had no appetite or my portion sizes were out of whack.
On November 13th, I’ll be helping to pace the 3:00 group for the Big Sur Half Marathon. I’m super excited to co-lead this group with my friend Molly and help runners reach their goals! Check out the The Treadmill’s Pacing Team bios and let me know if you’ll be running!
Remember, when I went to Toronto back in June to surprise my coach for her birthday and met the amazing group of ladies that run up there? Allison, aka The Lazy Perfectionist reached out about the Ragnar Niagara this May and if I’d like to join her team! She is an Ambassador and has put together a top notch group. Needless to say, I was thrilled for the invite and can’t wait to see this crew again!
Have you lost your mojo and how did you find it?
Anyone have Ragnar experience you can send my way?
Well, hello there! It’s been a busy month since we last chatted, which has been filled with travel, friends and celebrations.
The first weekend in June, I took my pink hat to Toronto! I had never been out of the country and my passport was begging for a stamp (which by the way, I didn’t get one!). Let’s rewind to April when I messaged Carmy about our coach’s birthday. Being a bit further away and having to ship it through customs, I wanted to make sure I had plenty of time to get a fabulous birthday gift to Michelle. Well, before you knew it, I was going to be her gift and a surprise party was in the works. Here is Michelle’s recap of the weekend! I have to say, it was one of the best girls’ weekends hands down that I’ve had! Getting to see her, meet the other girls in person and just have fun was really what it was about.
The Sunday after her surprise party, we took a little 5K stroll on a highway in Toronto! So much fun and the city is beautiful. The weekend reminded me that there are so many fun times to be had, memories to be made and amazing people to share them with. The Toronto crew is top notch, these girls not only support and love each other, they lift them up and remind them just how bad ass each one of them is. My kind of crew! Thank you for letting me crash the party!
When I got back, there was more celebrating! My best friend, Ginger had a birthday, too! All of these fabulous women in my life, remind me just how lucky my pink hat is.
Now, don’t think it’s been all jet setting, birthday partying and surprising! I’ve been out there pounding the pavement and getting it done. Marathon training is happening and I’m trying to work on the less is more approach, Coach and Dr. B think it’s a good idea. I know that it is, but I love to work out, especially when it involves friends. Seriously, the gym is like Cheers to me, it’s very much social and hard work rolled into one. I’ve been logging o’dark30 miles on my own and with Sarah, pool time, spin and strength work.
Are you on Instagram? You can check out what I’ve been up to, in between blog posts!
Through out my recovery and reentry to running, I’m learning how to embrace each run for what it is at the moment and what it gives me. Not every run is stellar like this morning’s but I’m trying to take something good from each one. Between the trips, running and enjoying life, I’m learning to take more chances, no regrets and the journey is shaping up to be one of the best yet.